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Vavn Dorokhin — Expectations (Live)

I recorded the live performance of my new song — «Expectations», putting and end to the psychologically very difficult period. I passed through it, became even stronger after this, and shared my feels with you — using the music and text.

I’m sitting here in the lonely room —
Days go by days: Suns and Moons.
I have already felt this way —
One and only, all the same.

You’re looking through your glass and see —
All the guests go by, you’ll never meet.
Only one… I wanted them to stay —
The further they went away.

Every time I’m sharing lonely heart,
Every time I’m sharing what’s inside.
Every time my fears become real —
Invisible tears.

¿What’s the reason of all of this?
¿Are my guests so indifferent?
¿Who chooses way?
I’ve paid my price, so I can say.

Expectations — everything will never be the same.
Expectations — attitude will never change.
Expectations — you shouldn’t force anyone to stay:
The more you try, the more you get, but only pain.
So, change yourself.

Do what you can, come what may.
Be true to self: it’s not — it’s not the end.
Expectations — everything will never be the same.
Expectations — attitude will never — never! — change.

Expectations — everything will never be the same.
Expectations — attitude will never change.
Expectations — you shouldn’t force anyone to stay:
The more you try, the more you get, but only pain.
Be yourself.

So, be yourself. So, be yourself — yourself. Oh, be yourself.
Self-change — be yourself, be yourself.

Every time I’m sharing broken heart,
Every time I’m sharing what’s inside.
Every time my fears become real.

Expectations — everything will be the same.
Expectations — attitude will never — never! — change.
Expectations — you shouldn’t force anyone to stay:
The more you try, the more you get, but only pain.

Expectations — everything will be the same.
Expectations — everything… Never change, never change, never change — never change.

Expectations — everything will be the same.
Expectations — everything will never — never! — change.
Expectations…

(Vavn Dorokhin — Expectations (Live))

Do not let the first impression of the song fool you: now, I feel great — as I feel the power thankfully to the gained knowledge in the last month. That was the reason why I did not share anything with you: I worked hard and a lot, — seventy, eighty, almost ninety hours a week — and when I was coming to the motel, I was reading and analyzing; was creating situations in my head and analyzing their consequences; was creating priorities and analyzing my past behavior.

The results are becoming more serious, the victories — more significant, but they are serious and significant for me in the first place. I am starting to have more money, as well as opportunities, which depend on them, but thankfully to this, an understanding of money as a tool has appeared — not as a goal.

This is my last day in New Hampshire. It was very difficult two months — very difficult psychologically. But I went through my trials, learned from what I had experienced, and became even stronger — by learning how to value and pay attention to myself in the first place, to build personal boundaries both for myself and in interaction with others, as well as being free from the need for expectations. I am ready to move on.

During the period, when I did not work on new songs, I got melodies  — without feeling any story behind them earlier, now I realize, what I want to connect with them. Now, I feel what I want to focus on, what message I want to fix in my future songs. I decided to start with «Expectations» — I recorded this song in one take, despite the rain and the increasing wind, but in the place I liked at Hampton Beach in a special way: near the bridge separating the highway, the pier with boats, and the huge Atlantic Ocean.