I thought about a new life countless times. A thousand, several thousands, maybe more — literally. I was obsessed with it for ten years.
The last of the three stories in the life of twenty three years old me — about the strength, which helped me to transform myself. About the strength, which let me to not to become broken and live further.
If a person is not ready to speak, then there is no need to speak. If a person is not ready to share, then there is no need to share.
I want to share my thoughts after my last — the eighteenth — story in these four months with you. This is the story of my twenty three years of life.
The first of the three most important stories in the life of twenty three years old me. This story is about how I transformed an enormous inner pain from the unfulfilled expectations for my own good and found out, to whom I need to give love in the first place.
My second — shorter, much calmer, and nature oriented — trip between the Hampton Beach and Philadelphia, during which I visited the Boston Chinatown with the Boston Public Garden and made some comparisons and thoughts about it.
I recorded the live performance of my new song — «Expectations», putting and end to the psychologically very difficult period. I passed through it, became even stronger after this, and shared my feels with you — using the music and text.
My latest performance of the «Spring» song at the «MoonTenStudio» recording studio made four months ago is finally available!
Yesterday, I felt, that it is the best time to share my performance with you.
Theft of a hundred dollars, toxic work relationships, accessibility of the second job, bank bureaucracy… No, most importantly — total loneliness and collapse of my expectations. The best moment to share what happened with me during the first month…
Yes, I have finally done it — after several months of hard work in order to achieve it, I am finally in the United States to gain an invaluable experience in both live and work…